My Journey

Hello friends!  Today I realized that since I had finished my first round of T25 that I have not been posting on this blog much and I really miss this!  Before I started on my journey I started this blog for myself.  I never intended to share this blog with anyone I only wanted to document how I was feeling so I never went back to being that way.  I always watch the Biggest Loser and I love that they tape those people before they start their journey and then let them watch it at the end and that is what I wanted to be able to do.  For as long as I can remember I have always struggled with my weight and for the past 10 years it was just going from bad to worse.  My father died in 2007 from a sudden heart attack because of the poor choices he made with his health (he was an alcoholic, he chain smoked, he was overweight and completely out of shape... basically the epitome of unhealthy) and I didn't want that to happen to me.  I want to make sure I am around for my son for many, many more years to come!  I think everyone has heard my story and how I started my journey and what I look like today.  What you may not know is how different I feel and I want to share that with you.

Have you ever had an AHA moment?  When I was done with my first round of T25 (I still workout every day and do T25 along with Hip Hop Abs and PiYo) I decided to do something drastic and dye my hair back to as close to my original hair color as I could.  I am not sure exactly what possessed me to do that but for those of you who know me you know that I change my hair color frequently.  Frankly I would just get sick of trying to keep up with the color because my hair grow so fast and my roots were perpetually terrible.  This particular time when I dyed my hair dark something odd happened.  For the first time I didn't have the overwhelming urge to run to the store and buy color to turn my hair back to blond.  It wasn't for a few weeks that it hit me like a ton of bricks that all these years I have been changing my hair (as well as spending so much money and time doing things like tanning, buying new stuff for my house, buying clothes and so on) because I was trying to feel better.  And the reason those things weren't making me feel better was because changing my topical appearance or buying stuff were only temporary fixes and the instant gratification would wear off eventually and I would go back to feeling bad.  The difference between then and now is that now I am happy on the inside which is the result I was going for all that time but could not achieve.  See I wasn't happy with myself and no amount of makeup or hair dye could fix that.  If you aren't happy on the inside it does not matter what the outside looks like.  Finally I am happy with me and I love me and I feel great and I look great.  I will say I look great and hold my head up high while I say it because I have never thought that before!  Am I my ideal weight right now?  NO!  Are their improvements that I am still working on?  MOST DEFINITELY!!!  BUT, I am happy and that is the greatest feeling of all!    

Now I can go back and look at my "BEFORE" video and be proud of myself.  And I will NEVER go back to being that person again as long as I live.  For me when I shared this blog because I was so happy with the results I was getting I had no idea how freeing that sharing could be.  And if anyone had told me that I would inspire someone else I would have never believed you.  I am literally tearing up as I type this because I know that I have inspired people, and those people have inspired people and the giant snowball of my inspiration just keeps rolling downhill picking up steam and growing exponentially which is pretty awesome.  Becoming a coach and helping others do the same thing as me and spending every day inspiring and motivating and reaping the rewards of what just started as a little blog I was doing for myself is overwhelming.  I am truly blessed and my soul is overflowing with joy.  I care so much about everyone and I hope that everyone finds their joy before it is too late.  You deserve it all!  Revel in your triumphs and use your failures as a catalyst for success for without failures you will never truly be successful.  Glenda the good witch from the Wizard of Oz said it best "You've always had the power my dear you just had to learn if for yourself".  

Thanks for going on my journey with me and trust me it is not over so I hope you will stay with me!  Have a great week!