IT'S OFFICIAL... My body is jello :(

Good Morning Friends,

For those of you who have known me for a while, you know that I worked really hard to lose over 30 pounds and I almost had the 6 pack I always wanted.  And then I started getting comfortable and complacent.  I had people telling me I was too thin (I am 5'2" tall and weighed 132 pounds) and giving me all sorts of advice, criticism, commentaries etc. and while it was nice that people were noticing all of the negative attention I was receiving was overtaking all of the positive feedback.  Worst of all I started feeling comfortable in my own skin and started slowly but surely making excuses for not working out and for eating whatever I felt like eating, damn the calories!

I have tried for months and months to get back on track but dang, it is hard!  This morning I decided that enough is enough and I did Speed 2.0 (Focus T25, Beta Cycle by Shaun T, da man) and I wiggled and jiggled all over my kitchen.  HOLY MOLY my body is mush!  My abs were cursing me for ignoring them for so long and my saddle bags were crying tears of joy.  NO MORE EXCUSES for this girl!!  When I started my journey in February of 2014 I started this blog strictly as a journal for myself.  However when I started seeing results and shared my journey with the world, that was almost as therapeutic and rewarding as my new body.  So, I have decided that I know what I need to do to stay on track and that is to start back with my blog/therapy.  When I was a child my grandmother kept a diary and she bought me diaries and I started keeping a daily journal at a young age.  I was always very shy and it was a way for me to express myself without having to speak.  For those of you who have supported and followed me, thank you.  I so appreciate everyone single one of you.  By making my blog and my journey public I realize that I open myself up to not just the positive but the negative as well.  One of my goals right now, other than getting rid of my jello body, is to deal with the negativity.  Everything that happens to us on a daily basis is subject to our perception.  Maybe I just take what people say the wrong way sometimes because I am so critical of myself and have always suffered from self-esteem issues.  Regardless, I have a lot of work to do but I am willing to crack the whip and start being the person that I want to be instead of the person that I have let myself believe that I am and the person that others want me to be.  Having said that I guess I better stop typing and CHOP CHOP!  I have some work to do!!!

Have a great day everyone!!

XOXO
Tina