Is Life Getting in the Way of Your Life?

Today I realized that I am finally starting to feel like I have a life.  I know that may sound a little weird because everyone who is alive has a life so I will explain.  I have had a life since I was born, this is very true.  However I had the life that others wanted me to have.  You might be thinking that is not that if I was living the life others wanted me to have then that was my own fault because we all get to choose our own life.  The problem was that I did not know that I was not leading the life that I wanted to lead.  I am 47 years old and I am just realizing that all these years I have been living a life that was not my ideal life.  How did I not know this?  The best answer that I can come up with is that I was just going with the flow.

In high school my guidance counselor said I should go to Alice Lloyd College because I could get a full scholarship so that is where I went.  That is not what I wanted to do but I did what he suggested because I thought he knew better than I what course I should take.  My whole life I had wanted to go to The Ohio State University and become a psychiatrist.  THAT was my dream.  But I did what he suggested and did not even try to pursue my own dream.

After college my mother got very sick and I moved with her back to Ohio to be close to our family so that she would be looked after while I worked.  I am not saying that I regret that decision at all but I was not pursuing my own dreams.

Fast forward to 1999 when I had my son and my life became all about him.  As a parent your child should definitely be your priority but if you don't have a life that you love then how happy can you really make your child.  I guess a better way to put it would be that your child will experience more happiness if you are at your happiest but I just never thought of it that way I suppose.

If you have been following my Facebook like page or this blog or have watched any of my YouTube videos then you may be somewhat familiar with my life and my struggles.  Year after year I was finding myself dealing with issues such as my stepfather passing away in 2006, I bought my first home in 2007 and 7 days after I moved in my father died of a sudden heart attack at the age of 59, in 2008 I had a lot of medical issues, over the past 6 years I have had a lot of relationship issues and issues with my weight.  I could literally go on and on and I am sure you could swap stories with me about your struggles.  Those struggles are called life and things happen and are going to continue to happen.  One of my favorite new quotes goes something like this "Yeah that happened but it doesn't matter that it happened what matters is what are you going to do about it?"  That is my version of the quote and how I choose to paraphrase it because I now realize that shit happens.  Shit happens to everyone.  The only thing that matters is what are you going to do about it.  A really simple way to put it is that how you react to what happens around you is what determines your life.  YOU are in control so what are you going to do about it because that decision or choice that you make will determine how your life is going to go or what direction your life is going to take or your attitude.  In the past I was making choices like hating myself, eating away the stress, staying in unhealthy relationships and situations just to appease someone else but not any more.  The new me is confident, strong, self-loving, and I have a new passion for life.  I don't want to just exist any more and I don't want to let "life" get in the way of my life, my vision, my dreams.  IS LIFE GETTING IN THE WAY OF YOUR LIFE?

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