Superwoman I Am Not

Here I go again taking my pain and struggles to my trusted friend, my blog. This is the place that I feel like I can be honest and open and hopefully inspire someone else while I am documenting my journey through life.

If you know me or have followed my blog then you know that I have been struggling with self-esteem and my weight for quite some time if not all of my life (at least for as long as I can remember and I am old so the memory isn't exactly what it used to be). One of the things that I have to work on constantly is to not let what others do to me or say about me define me. But that is very difficult sometimes. For example I saw someone (who I won't name) the other day that I had not seen since the first of May. I complimented them on how nice they looked. The first and only thing the person said to me was a derogatory comment about the color of my hair. I wanted to run away and cry but of course I didn't. I simply held my head up and replied that I love my hair and I moved on but the hurt that statement caused is still with me. There is nothing I would like more than to be able to just let stuff like that go but when it continually happens that is easier said than done.

One thing that I am quite aware of is that because I have made my struggles public that I am opening myself up to ridicule and criticism. I am painfully aware that I am putting a target on my back. Am I perfect? NO!! Have I ever said I was perfect? NO!! I simply like to share my story with others hoping that if anyone else out there is having the same struggles that I am facing they know they are not alone. Because I have had people reach out to me and tell me that I have inspired them or motivated them I will not go quietly into a corner and stay there. I will continue to share my story and I will continue to keep soldiering forward no matter the cost. Believe me when I say that I do not think I am perfect and I do not think that I am Superwoman. I am just me trying to figure me out so I can be happy.

For those of you who like to throw stones at others to beat the happy out of them just to try to make yourself feel better just remember that karma is real and she is a bitch. That is fo sho! So Ima take a little advice from Tay Tay and Shake It Off! Have a great day :)